..morning comes, the sun is threatening to shine on my way, i see a figure of a person whom im not sure if it does truly exists or just a pigment of my imagination, standing a few feet away from me…
the dawn of a new day scares me for I am scheduled to go home on that new day…I wait and wait, and tension together with anxiety starts to build up on me, only a few hours ago I was packing my things not bothering to worry in what lies ahead of me when i come home, when i step out of that bus into that familiar land..but now that reality has finally knocked some sense into me..i’m scared, very very scared of what monster awaits me unto that familiar yet empty place which i call home
no I don’t wanna go home, i just wanna stay like this forever not thinking of what will happen to me next, not scared of the insults, embarrassment and physical pain that will hit me when i come to that familiar place..all i want is to just escape reality as much as i can..i want to drift off to my castle where ill be safe and forever alone.
when sleep sprinkles in my eyes, and my mind drifts off to never-land, i wish to never wake up….but wait even in my dreams this reality still hunts me…i’m scared, will you save me?
i recently was interested in “inked arts” on people’s skin & their story behind it…na para bang gusto ko na rin magkaroon ng sariling akin kahit maliit lang, but i want it to be meaningful at hindi basta-basta lang for the sake na magkaroon ako nito…kaya lang i still haven’t found the right & reasonable excuse to get one…plus im also scared of the needle that will touch my skin when that day comes. . ewan ko nga eh kung sudden impulse lang ba to or just my crazy girl brain talking nonsense shit..ewan ang gulo ko..
pero gusto ko nito..cool kasi sya and i like what it says..
—maybe someday a day will come na magkaroon din ako nito, but not just yet, kasi hindi pa oras..=)